another day over

Today I was feeling a little blue I guess as yesterday was the anniversary of my mums death and I love her and miss her so bad sometimes.  Then of course was the 2nd task well what can I say it all came out when I stared writing and then re reading shit what the fuck am I saying a mozzie is stopping me walking how bad is that one.  I had many excuses the usual time, money, heat, work, family heaps of things that are totally rediculous.  All that made me sit and think about my life and the people I surround myself with.  Most are great but there are a few that all the do is drag me down and try and rule my life in one way or another.  We socialise with people that are wonderful but food seems to be a big part of everything we do so i may have to distance myself from this scene for a while just till I get on track and can deal with the excuses.